What i was thinking
June 30, 2006
Daddy,
I love You, today and forever. Know that only a couple days ago i had no doubts, i knew i was Yours and W/we would be together but now i feel them creeping in. Doubts not about whether i love You or whether i am Yours but of when W/we can be together. i wonder at times how long i can cling to You, to the thought of You, to the need to be Yours with such intensity. Because it has been intense lately Daddy. i’ve never felt so obsessed. And i only have so much energy. How long can i keep this up before i need a sabbatical? A rest, a break…to reenergize, to collect myself.
i laid down to sleep but this is all i could think of i knew i had to write it out for You. It’s only fair You know what i’m thinking.
love,
sarah
