i disobeyed Daddy today, June 26, 2006 at 9:26am his time. He’s going to whip me, and spank me with both hands then he’s going to face fuck me until my lil throat is so raw.

*Update*

I feel bad about it but not as bad as i probably should and that makes me feel even worse. But I’m content with having to get a punishment even though I don’t know when it will come. Daddy knows sometimes I need to be punished and if ever I really deserved it; it was today because I didn’t disobey just to get scolded and punished but because I truly didn’t want to do what Daddy told me to do. Even though it would have made him so proud and he was very patient about it. I’m sorry I’m not ready to take those sort of risks Daddy.